But I don't think that's really what today is about. Today, for me, is about change, about finally finding meaning. The fat kid that I am, and only in retrospect can I actually joke about this, I remember that I spent this day last year chowing down in tears on a Jack In The Box ultimate cheeseburger and curly fry combo all alone in my new LA apartment. I remember being scared, broken, emotionally bruised, longing for a change and meaning.
My life, that fateful move, and every step along the way in between has been about change, about working through that restless heart. But no matter what life brought, I lived every moment giving out love - even sometimes when it hurt more than ever to do that - and I have been ultimately blessed to get it back a million fold.
And now, a year later, I can say I would not be here without the love of the most amazing friends and family in the world -- those of many years and those seemingly new that have adopted me into their SoCal way of life that seems years older. And THAT is the only reason I can keep doing what I'm doing, pushing on every day, towards that ultimate finish line and not ultimate cheeseburger. And because I know these incredible people will always be waiting, just in case, with that proverbial parachute I can always continue to jump, unafraid of the heights.
Today's Jam: "Meaning" by Gavin DeGraw (Chariot, 2003)
Tri this Emotion: Eternally grateful and birthday blessed
The Be-All End-All Attitude: Love has a meaning, there's a meaning to the world - we're given love.
No comments:
Post a Comment